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Lloyd Tennison  male
postThursday, May 6, 2010 05:48 AM  Write a comment

Happy Birthday, missing you.
Courtney McQuade  female
postThursday, May 6, 2010 01:36 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

Happy Birthday my sweet brother. I miss you so much. I wish I wish I wish...
Stiltz Daddy  male
postFriday, March 19, 2010 02:47 PM  Write a comment

I miss and love you brother. Coming to visit you tomorrow.
Lloyd Tennison  male
postFriday, March 19, 2010 06:17 AM  Write a comment

One year, I can hardly believe it. Still missing you.
Eric  male
postFriday, March 19, 2010 02:08 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

It has been a year sense I got a call from Megan telling me you were gone and it has been rough. You were the best little brother a big brother could of ever had. We shared so many crazy things growing up. From ordering pets on line, to bringing snakes home without our parents knowing only for the parents to later catch the snake crawling down the hall way, to sneaking out our window to go drive my car around and being completely bored once we got the car out of the court. You left us FAR to soon and that just sucks. I think about you everyday and thank you for being a great brother. I love and miss you.
Michelle Molinari  female
postThursday, May 7, 2009 07:20 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

I certainly won't question that you're watching over all of us after yesterday's coincidence/timing.
Shouldn’t surprise me, we had so many coincidences. The first night we met, “me too!” was used every other word by both of us. Within a week I had to ‘up’ my text plan, he’d taken me to dinner and a movie, two of Brent’s shows “you’re going to love them, they’re great!” a club in SF, dive bar in Martinez, I’d met his parents, met his sisters…he’d met my mother, brother and even Grandma Betty, he’d asked me to “officially be his girlfriend” and when I told him it was too early for the L-word, he’d text: “I know it’s too early to use the ‘L’ word but I want you to know I feel it.” I felt it too and everyone who spent five minutes with us, saw our connection and didn’t mind feeling free to ask if we were married (sweet sweet Megan for reminding me of that moment on the patio). My brother & his girlfriend roped us into playing Wii sports, Ryan lost every time and I swear he had the most fun. He was such a good easy task, we were a smack talking, “what’s the score board say?” competitive bunch. I told him I didn’t need flowers, chocolates or stuffed animals, I wanted laughter, fun & loyalty. He showed up to my work with a dozen roses, impressed my co-workers and took me to lunch. I bragged more about him having the second half of my sandwich wrapped up to-go, than the flowers. He always apologized for being in his work boots, it took all my power to refrained from asking if he could wear his hard hat around too.
BCEC honey.
Our conversations didn’t have limits…as if we found the one person who was missing in our lives and we had to quickly get them caught up. We both bragged we knew every word to rapper’s delight, when we tried to ‘prove it’ we realized it’s a lot easier with a juke box ‘helping.’ He told me about his nephew who went to school with his button up shirt, unbuttoned, because “that’s how uncle Ryan wears them,” immediately asking me if I wanted kids, because he loves kids (wasn’t I supposed to be asking the ‘scare-you-away, talk-of-the-future questions?’). He wanted three babies, I told him I only had two hands, two kids, he insisted three and I just remember thinking, yeah, after the second one, we’ll see how bad you want that third, as if this kind of talk was perfectly normal before the 3rd date. He told me all about Florida and his t-shirt altering, shameless promoting, videography…I called those his “college days,” therefore forgivable. (I had some Chico State stories and I had been to the playboy mansion as a staff photographer…shhh).
He told me his buddy had a boat, he was so excited for summer (I immediately did 10,000 sit-ups), his other buddy just got an alcohol funny car and he wanted to take me to see it run (I took him for a ride in my 1969 Camaro in a lame attempt to impress him…all I managed to do was lose my complaining privileges, “your exhaust is WAY louder than my beat.”) He told me his “boys are adorable, you might fall in love with them.” I told him I’d cover my eyes when I met them. All my life I’d talked about wanting “tall, blond & lanky” …I’d found him and knew I wouldn’t be able to tear my eyes off him, or ever see anyone more gorgeous.
I loved that he was impressed and not threatened by anything I’ve done. I loved how he said what he thought and wasn’t afraid to tell me how he felt about me. I loved how he talked about the future, as if it was a given I’d be there. “I’m going to pick out your ring and you’re going to love it.” I miss holding his hand, he thanked me for being the type of girl who liked holding hands in public…I should have held on tighter.
Lloyd Tennison  male
postWednesday, May 6, 2009 03:38 PM  Write a comment

Your birthday was today. I miss you and wish you were here for me to celebrate it with you.
Courtney McQuade  female
postWednesday, May 6, 2009 01:21 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

Today would've been your 32nd birthday Ryan. I remember throwing your 30th like it as yesterday... Your cake mom picked up for me on the way to your party... that was so funny. Mom, Megan and I let 32 balloons in the air for you today... I love you and miss you so much. Happy Birthday Ryan!
Eric Kendrick  male
postSunday, April 19, 2009 12:33 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

It has been a month and I still can not believe this has happened. Can not simply rap my hands around this entire thing. I miss you..
Kelly Yates  female
postSaturday, April 11, 2009 06:03 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

I met Ryan in 2007 at a halloween party. I was dancing with my friend Tabatha when all the sudden there he was asking if I like to go to clubs.. haha told me he could get me on to a lot of the guest lists to clubs in the city.. Charming, charismatic, happy, and a free spirit. I'm really going to miss Ryan.. Already really missing him!
jon handy  male
postTuesday, March 31, 2009 04:27 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

ryan....i remember the last time i saw you. you were working at that electronics store next to tower records in concord. i think it was called good guys, or circuit city or something like that. anyway, you had that same smile you always wore and that confident, positive, overpowering aura that i'll never forget. i always looked up to you even though we were the same age. i wondered how someone so cool and outgoing would ever want to kick-it with myself who was always quiet and nerdy. i guess you just saw through the stereotypes and wanted a good friend. i miss you. i miss competing for the first chair trumpet spot in band. we both were always the best, so we just traded first chair for every other song. and it was awesome because we were naturally talented and we both didn't even have to practice but we were still the best. i remember at wren ave when our band teacher, mr. ferarra gave us both presents cause he played the trumpet too, and i was jealous cause he gave you that awesome mouthpiece and he just gave me the lava soap to clean my trumpet. i saw a picture in the slide show at your service with you and i at one of our concerts at wren. it made me cry. i have another picture of us that my dad took after the concert. i need to go find that. i know we have pictures of us in scouts too. cubscouts, boyscouts, camp wolfeboro. i remember you peeing off of a rock and andy mccurdy got in the way at our campsite at wolfeboro. that was awesome. i remember you cutting yourself with your pocketknife trying to carve a stick into a point, sitting on that same rock and mr. wolfford yelling at you. you were awesome man. always havin some smart comment for any conversation. i remember you being really polite to my parents. kinda eddie haskell like, but genuine. you should be proud of your parents. i know you were. they raised you right. i remember when you lived on farm bureau and i came over and you guys had just got new carpets and your dad yelled at me for walking on them with my shoes on. i remember you riding your bike past my house and making fun of the way i was mowing the lawn. i remember having a crush on courtney. you never knew. i remember you drank alot of orange juice. i remember taking our bikes up to lime ridge and shooting lizards with our slingshots and falling off my bike coming down one of the hills and you telling me that i if had tucked and rolled, i wouldn't have scraped my leg up. you even demonstrated it for me. anyway, i miss you bro, and you were one of a kind. and i'm sorry for the way i write. all my thoughts are scattered about. it's just the way i think. but you knew that. the minister said to take the memories that we had of you and find a way to make them live on so i'm gonna start playing the trumpet again for you bro. i love you man......later.
Megan McQuade  female
postThursday, March 26, 2009 05:46 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

I wanted to share something my friend James wrote for me...

Should we doubt, his mere presence
based on life's wicked games.
should we question existence
and, deny fact, that he reigns.
throughout turbulent trailways,
display strength, and maintain,
all the while, riddled with grief
suffocating in shame.
almost too selfish to feel,
maybe i am to blame.
though redemption, we know
somehow, strengthens the chain.
sooo...whenever weakened
and lost, or confused in distress
simply - lie back, and rest
and realize youre blessed
to simply feel a sensation, or
emotional bond, most times
disregarded, till that someone
is gone.
it rings true over time...
the lord need not to explain
therefore faith absolute
is for you to sustain.

Some things were not meant
to be understood, some people
live long lives, and never
appreciate the true gift in it.

don't miss the gift

-James Marshall
mary driscoll bastian  female
postThursday, March 26, 2009 03:29 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

It wasn't surprising to see so many people at the church yesterday, even as the child I use to babysit he was so loving and welcoming. Listening and reading about the memeries people have of Ryan I was glad to hear not much had changed from those days on Gemini Ct. I remember that one of the 1st of many times I babysat the Mcquade kids, Ryan was just a baby, he needed his diaper changed. I took him into his room and laid him on his changing table Courtney followed. As I changed him,Courtney stood at the end of the table watching. too bad it was the wrong end.....As boys often do, he peed.... right onto Courtney's face. Once I scooped a bare bottom Ryan up and took Courtney to wash her face and yes brushed her teeth I laughed so hard I cried.I also remember playing the song Barabra Anne over and over for him as he danced around the living room. Or how he and Courtney would each get combs and the tub of clips and pull the heck out of my scalp while"styling" my hair. Another time years later he may have been 3rd grade, his Grandma was watching the kids out front playing. My brother Steve came home from work. As he pulled up to the curb Ryan got so excited to see his buddy he run out into the street.Right behind the truck as it backed up. I must have lost 10yrs off my life and his guarden angel was on his toes. Steve missed him by just inches. I was so much in protective mode, I grabbed Ryan and yelled at him, I'm sure scaring Grandma. then I hugged him and started crying telling him never to run out in the street agian. he just looked at me with those big blue eyes and said that he was sorry and squeezed the air out of me.I've always felt the Mcquade kids were and r more like my nieces and niephew. you have alway been asked about when I talk to my parents, always been loved.Growing up on Gemini Ct was wonderful.We were a family.Our parents were always there to watch over each of us and we all got yelled at evenly.And no matter the age nobody was left out of the flag football games,tag or running thru the sprinklers. The last time I saw all of u was at my wedding 20 yrs ago. I wish seeing u all agian was 4 a different reason. U all will b always in my prayers and heart. Love u. Mary smilie smilie smilie
Karen Gray Olson  female
postThursday, March 26, 2009 01:39 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail


We couldn't have been a more unlikely friendship, we were in totally different worlds. But I was so drawn to the way you lived life in such a huge way, you had such a pure heart and loved the people around you so much, and you had so much passion and so much fun in whatever you did. My life is richer because I knew you and I hope I can honor your memory by living life a little fuller tomorrow.
Love, Karen
Devin Snyder  male
postThursday, March 26, 2009 07:53 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

I was looking through my phone earlier today and when I passed by your name I stopped and sadness came over me. I remember how stoked I used to get when my phone rang and the screen said "McQuade" because that usually meant that I was gonna have a fun ass night or a crazy weekend. We had a lot of those. I still have video footage of us at my old apartment and you're juggling and flexing for the ladies and then you took a white t-shirt, ripped it up and made it into a two piece bikini. We had one of the girls model it and she looked killer. I think you told me that you learned how to do that while you were "working" in Florida. Hahaha!

Last night was a trip being at Arties without you- even though, in a way, you were there with us. The last time I was there was for your 30th birthday. It seems like such a long time ago now.

I wish you were still around to tell me stories about the crazy #@*%! that we used to get into. I wish that you were still around so that we could make new stories to laugh about later. I was so excited about this summer and you were a big reason for that. We were already making boat plans and talking about the things we were gonna get into. It's going to be impossible to not think of you every time i'm in the sun or having a beer on a boat.

You were always one of my favorite friends. We had so many funny times together. I just can't believe that I won't see you again here on this earth. I do know, however, that you'll be with us in ours hearts and our memories. Your smile, your laugh, your goofy ass sayings- they were all uniquely you. You were truly one of a kind and I know that I'll never meet somebody even remotely like you. I miss you and I love you Ryan. Until we meet again...
Andrea Scagnoli-Penley  female
postThursday, March 26, 2009 07:32 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

Ryan- You will be forever missed by so many! I will always remember your smile and amazing personality.
Deirdre Smith  female
postThursday, March 26, 2009 03:30 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

RyGuy - my little brother from another mother. Thank you so much for touching my life the way you did. I am so thankful to have known you and so heartbroken that you are gone. I will love you always!
Robert Downs  male
postWednesday, March 25, 2009 02:08 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

Dude i only knew you for 2 1/2 years and we had some crazy times together. I keep remembering all these weird little things about you that seem so important now, like the goofy laughs and the way you would pace when you would talk on the phone... and how you would bring like 10 sodas to work every day and always give me one (thank you ryans mom, which the guys teased him that his mom made his lunch). The first week that he worked for me he was and hour late and i pulled him aside and he told me he spilt orange juice in moms house and he had to clean it up...i thought that was the lamest excuse i ever heard (after thinking about it... it was so lame it had to be true), after meeting his parents and seeing the white carpet i understood. Ryan was quit the gullible guy with a good sense of humor...

e used to pull pranks on him all the time, we filled his gloves with grease and put grease on his hard hat liner, pretended to throw his paycheck off the 22 story of a building, filled his tool box with sand on monday then on tuesday the guys filled his tool box with expansion foam... then when i saw him standing around cleaning his tools for 2 hours i was giving him a hard time that he wasnt working fast enough. After the expansion foam... it was on Ryan stapled my pant legs shut on my overalls, then hid all my paper work on a beam that was 40 feet in the air. Another time we were testing some water pipes and he was walking a floor by himself when i realized i hadnt heard from him, i went down to his floor and he had his finger pinched in an open pipe that was dumping water all over the place and he said he didnt know what else to do besides stand there and wait for me...

oh and i cant forget about the time i told you to go get a pipe stretcher (theres no such thing) and he came back with a soda for me and said he couldnt find it and he didnt want to come back empty handed. Bro... you introduced me to my girlfriend.... I'll never forget that first time we went to a bar and almost got in a fight (Mr. tough guy)... or the last time we went to a bar together and almost got in a fight.... not that liked to fight or anything... theres was nothing you loved more than making new friends. I never saw somebody care for their family and protect their sisters as much as you did. I will always miss those car rides with you eating taco bell and digging through the mess of clothes in the back seat to make more room for friends. All and all i will miss you a lot. I loved you as a good friend.......
Scott Jones  male
postWednesday, March 25, 2009 10:13 AM  Write a comment

Ryan will always be a part of my life and will have a place in my heart. He was one of the most loyal friends a person could have. The picture on the front of this sight should be titled "the McQuade" as this was one of his trademark poses. I will miss you McQuade!
Shawn Allen  male
postTuesday, March 24, 2009 03:51 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

I will never forget the first time I met Ryan, I did not know anyone at Wren Avenue and this tall, skinny kid with a huge smile welcomed me as if we had been friends forever. From birthday parties, capture the flag, and sleep-overs, I will always remember how wonderful being around Ryan was. My childhood is full of great memories of Ryan McQuade and to this day I am a better man for it. I will miss your spirit and your ownership of this life Ryan, and know you are in the thoughts and prayers of many as is your wonderful family. Keep that smile brother!!!! your friend Shawn Allen
Chad Voss  male
postTuesday, March 24, 2009 02:55 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

I am glad to call you my friend and will forever miss you. You were always so full of life and willing to do anything for your friends. I will never forget all that you did for me. You will always be in my prayers. I love you bro!
Joe Skaar  male
postTuesday, March 24, 2009 02:08 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

You were a great friend. We had a lot of fun as kids and I'll never forget that. Thanks for everything.
Brandon Kendrick  male
postTuesday, March 24, 2009 01:00 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

hey if any of you new ryan well i did because he was my uncle well any ways he was a very cool guy and a very awsome uncle and i will remember all of the fun times that we had together. i will allways remember you
Jen Smith  female
postTuesday, March 24, 2009 09:39 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

Dearest Ryan,

You were always like a little brother to me. I will miss your smile and your laugh. I remember when you were just a little kid working at Safeway. Thank you for all of the nice memories. Love ya little bro. My deepest sympathies and condolences to Ann, John, Courtney, Megan and Eric.

Jen Smith
Ian Tibbs  male
postTuesday, March 24, 2009 09:08 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

I'll always remember pissing off Mr. Rizzo in Northgate math class together, as well as all the good times in the crossings and everywhere else we hung out or ran into each other.
Ryan Potts  male
postTuesday, March 24, 2009 03:37 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail


There was a time in our early 20s that we had the same group of friends. We had some good times. I will always remember your smile and your laugh. You were always a good guy to be around and will truly be missed.

Your family and friend are in my thoughts.

-Ryan Potts
Audri Bakke  female
postTuesday, March 24, 2009 02:53 AM  Write a comment

Ryan, I've known you my entire life and never once thought that would change. I never really got the chance to tell you how much you meant to me; you were like a brother. I'll cherish every memory and moment I had with you. Christmas will never be the same without your smile and laughter. I miss you and love you so much!
Lindsey Lang  female
postTuesday, March 24, 2009 02:44 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

Ryan, my heart is heavy knowing that you are gone and thinking about all the fun times we shared. You always made everybody laugh, and your eyes and smile would light up a room. You knew the true meaning of friendship. You will be EXTREMELY missed by so many.
Tiffany Sanders  female
postTuesday, March 24, 2009 12:14 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail


You took me under your wing when we were all still so young... & man- we've got some memories I will NEVER forget!
We always managed to lose eachother for a bit but when we came back together- not a beat was skipped.
I never told exactly how much you meant to me, but somehow I think you always knew. You've been my safety net- even from afar and I want to tell you that I will love you forever and NOBODY compares. Keep that protective wing over me, k?

To the McQuades: Ryan made a lasting impression everywhere he went and we are all honored that you shared him with us. Thank you.
Rob Stennes  male
postMonday, March 23, 2009 11:28 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail


You're probably one of my oldest friends. I remember all of us hangin' back in the Forest Park Days, and then to be reunited during High School and after. You and I had some great times. I will never forget them. My fondest memeory is when you and I walked into a party and cleaned these guys pockets out in Dominoes. We pimped those guys so hard, they never saw our skills comin. Hilarious. You will forever be in my thoughts.

To the prayers are with you all.
Keri Dean Raymond  female
postMonday, March 23, 2009 10:17 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

Ryan, what can I say but you were an amazing friend. I cherish the times we spent together. I will miss you so much.

To Ryan's family, you are in my thoughts and prayers always.
Mike Melvin  male
postMonday, March 23, 2009 02:53 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail


Thank you for everything. You will never be forgotten.
Eric Kendric  male
postMonday, March 23, 2009 02:08 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

I do not really know what to say yet Ryan. We ordered more stupid stuff from boy's life that got us in more trouble then I can write down. You were the life of the party and still are. You always made people smile when you walked in the room. Thank you for growing up with me. Even though I was the oldest, I learned alot from you. Looking thru old pictures today was not fun, but on the flip side brought back so many great memories. Thank you for being my brother.
Michelle Molinari  female
postMonday, March 23, 2009 01:55 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

Ryan I love you so much. I'm so grateful that you came into my life, even for the short time we had together I knew you were the one. I've never experienced true love until you, it was everything I'd dreamed it would be. You were my fairy tale. I miss you so much.
Chris Rojas  male
postMonday, March 23, 2009 01:51 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail


Brother – You were like one to me! I can’t even put into words how I feel right now. I was Maverick and you were Goose! TOP GUNS! I will hold you in my prayers every night to make sure your cool and remember that I will never forget you!

Until we will meet again!

You’re Friend,

Chris Rojas
Evan Hoyer  male
postMonday, March 23, 2009 12:44 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

No one could light up a room like Ryan. You were my first friend I had when I came to California and I will never forget you. I love you bro.

Meredith MacFarlane  female
postMonday, March 23, 2009 12:17 PM  Write a comment Send E-mail

RYAN-You will always be remembered in my heart for your kindness to all and that smile of yours will NEVER be forgotten. I can close my eyes and hear your laugh and it is wonderful! XOXOX
Laurie Berry  female
postMonday, March 23, 2009 11:56 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

Your family is in our thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. We hope all of your wonderful memories with Ryan will somehow give you a touch of comfort in the coming days. xoxoxo
Courtney McQuade  female
postMonday, March 23, 2009 11:51 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

Ryan you have always been the 'main man' in my life... nothing and no one will ever be able to replace you. I love you and miss you so much!!!
Lloyd Tennison  male
postMonday, March 23, 2009 11:19 AM  Write a comment Send E-mail

Ryan was the kind of person that when he walked into the room you knew it even if you were facing the other direction - and it had nothing to do with how tall he was. The loud "What's up" and the bear hugs immediately followed his entrance. His voice had only two levels - loud and louder.

There were no strangers around Ryan. He made sure that everyone was introduced to each other - "This is my boy...")

You always knew what Ryan thought about you - "I love you man," or "I love you bro," was a common phrase.

Ryan had a lot of different jobs, and met a lot of different types of people. A hundred years ago he would have been called a "Renaissance Man", but that was until he finally found what he wanted to do with his life and what kind job he wanted.

Ryan, I have many good memories of our short time together, the years have been good and I will miss you terribly.
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